A fear of life and death (1)

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about

poorly composed and recorded by rob on a laptop in a bedroom hence why it all sounds bad. i used a sample of sniper from dota 2 lol so thanks valve. the mixing is very rough i have no idea how to mix. it's my first full album and i put more effort than usual in so enjoy (hopefully))).

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released August 6, 2017

CREDIT TO JOE WILLIS WHO DID THE ART

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Track Name: intro (strawberry toothache)
strawberry toothache feels like a heartbreak
at the age of 16 do you know what i mean ?

you find yourself looking at prozac pills
you're used to hurting yourself for cheap thrills
does it feel like a chore ?
you always lock your door

your brother he never sees you
you walk and you talk and you squawk like a turkey at christmas

strawberry toothache feels like a heartbreak
at the age of 16 do you know what i mean ?
Track Name: lonely girl
i am the girl you force yourself to talk to all the time
i know you're struck with grief and hate for yourself as much as me

i'm needed for the toast
i'm not needed by most
i don't wanna do it
so i run away across the hills oh dear
i've got lost again

i'm a troglodyte
there's no need to fight
i'm not sure ill see you in the morning

i'm a lonely girl
i'm a lonely girl
i'm a lonely girl
i'm a lonely girl godforsaken

i want to get away from here
somewhere far not somewhere near

i'm needed for the toast
i'm not needed by most
i don't wanna do it
so i run away across the hills oh dear
i've got lost again

i'm a troglodyte
there's no need to fight
i'm not sure ill see you in the morning

i'm a lonely girl
i'm a lonely girl
i'm a lonely girl
i'm a lonely girl godforsaken
Track Name: animosity
i swear that your mother hates you
she doesn't want you here i know this
by the look she gives you boy,
i sure hope she loves your sister
loves your brother
unconditionally unlike you
she forces herself to love you
love you
love you
love you
because she hates you

but do you hate it when she says

animosity peaks with you
animosity peaks with you
resentment, you're an antagonist
that's what she says to you


animosity peaks with you
animosity peaks with you
resentment, you're an antagonist
that's what she says to you
Track Name: doom and gloom
can't you see I'm busy
dancing away the song thats in my head
ill talk in riddles when you speak to me
spending all day in bed

this is the song the song for the melancholy
girl and boys who think that they're better off
in their beds smoking their lives away

how do you dance to it ?
that feeling of doom and gloom
i start to dance to it
feel myself start to bloom

how do you dance to it ?
that feeling of doom and gloom
i start to dance to it
feel myself start to bloom
that feeling of doom and gloom
feel myself start to bloom
that feeling of doom and gloom
feel myself start to bloom


how do you dance to it?
Track Name: space 1 (cinema)
INTERLUDE
Track Name: boy meets girl
I'm not here but try to notice me if you can I'm ethereal
its hard to see me I'm see through like a window
im not used to people speaking back to me
no one says hello
apart from you

i am a ghost

lonely girl
im lonely too
i want to
be lonely with you help me

ghost boy are you sure you want me around
i'm a nuisance listen to my mother
pick up your guitar please
i wanna hear your tunes
so play them

lonely girl
im lonely too
i want to
be lonely with you help me
Track Name: struck down
small kid in a big city
you wanna feel at home
small man in a rent house
big guns take him downtown
and i know now
this isn't what you wanted
and i know now
i'm not fit for the city

i want your hands around my neck
you make me feel so sad
i dance along the road i see
the big car with the lights
struck down
in the road
struck down

big kid in a small town
not used to green fields
big man in a nice flat
small knives take him uptown
when he knows now
this isn't what he wanted
and he knows now
he's not fit for this town


i want your hands around my neck
you make me feel so sad
i dance along the road i see
the big car with the lights
struck down
in the road
struck down
(repeat)
Track Name: space 2 (in the middle of the road)
INTERLUDE
Track Name: i think you know now
teary eyes imitate rainy days
we walk along the beach i made it up in my head
watching the birds fly over head
dreaming of space and stars that die away
empty cans blow by our feet
i think you know now
i think you know now
i think you know now

i think you know now
what happens
i think you know now
what i am
i think you know now
why i cry
i think you know now
why we die
i think you know now
Track Name: ghost boy
a young tree grows in the graveyard by dreary lane
it takes its time to reach its height it wants to reach
the emotional equivalent of watching paint dry
in a little while you see him die
in a little while you see him cry

oh ghost boy i heard you cry last night

you see another way of looking at death in a positive away
down dark street and dark alley with looming trees
tall men in dark suits like to think you aren't real
it comforts them knowing you're just a lie a myth
something to frighten their children
their children

oh ghost boy i saw you cry i saw you cry i saw you die

in a little while you will cry
in a little while you will die

i don't wanna die again snap my finger once i'll watch you burn away
i snap my finger twice three times four times for you death to be
my heart
my soul
my life
Track Name: you're dead
are you feeling it all ?
are you feeling at all ?
are you failing it all ?
are you failing at all ?
you're so pessimistic
you never go outside
beating your brother
is that all your care about ?
i wanna be alive
i guess i failed at that too
are you feeling it all ?
are you feeling at all ?
are you failing it all ?
are you failing at all ?

you're dead
Track Name: space 3 (radio in the treehouse)
INTERLUDE
Track Name: mirage
boys with toys and toys who are boys does it make you look left ?
girls with men and men who are girls does it make you look right ?

you are in my head again
oh mirage
mirage
mirage

looking up and seeing trees in the desert
seeing water warmer water in my head
being cold being frozen in my sleep
seeing people many people fall away

you are in my head again
oh mirage
mirage
mirage

palm trees gold trees little trees big tress it's all the same
when you're dying in the desert call my name
call my number call it twice or thrice
i'll be ready waiting for you mirage

you are in my head again
oh mirage
mirage
mirage
Track Name: infinity and one
infinity and one
why can't you try your best ?
i can never explain my sadness
to the one that makes me happiest
its a common misconception
that i love myself
without self worth
i am an empty shell of a crab

infinity and one
why can't you try your best
infinity and one
you never try your best
I've never seen you hard at work
infinity and one

theres a girl outside
who loves the boy inside
on the outside he's a mess
and he never tries his best oh no
it seems a shame that you waste your time
with me, i mean him
plant a big tree we'll sing a sad song we'll say a few words
but at the end of the day who cares?

infinity and one
why can't you try your best
infinity and one
you never try your best
I've never seen you hard at work
infinity and one